Come one Come all to the Shit Show......

The last few weekends I have been hanging out with old high school friends and have forgotten how much fun it can be to take a break from being an adult. I don't know what happened in between my senior year of college and being an adult but I forgot how to have fun. I'm not saying that I haven't enjoyed the last year or so but it's definitely nice to change the scenery. We've been going bar hopping and doing happy hour a lot more and it's nice to take that break. I don't always drink so I know it's not the alcohol but I'm sure it doesn't hurt either. Watching drunk people can be just as much fun as being the drunk person. Our night inevitably turn into what we would refer to as a "shit show" and leaves me with stories to talk about until the next shit show commences. Maybe now that I am turning back into a fun sociable semi-alcohol induced adult I will have more to blog about.

Small Realities

Well the doctor finally gave me an answer and as far as he's knows I am not dying, I do not have cancer, and I will be able to have children. Apparently the lining of my uterus is going where ever and however it feels the need to. The doctor told me to start my birth control again and this should resume "normality." If my period does not come back then we go back to the drawing board. What that really means is we start a new dose of hormones which will inevitably turn me into a crazy bitch monster. I was a crazy bitch monster last time and I felt like three different people all wrapped in one. I didn't like it and I can only imagine how people who have to deal with this sort of thing on a daily basis. I could stand feeling this way for one day never mind my whole life.

Work picked up this week when my life got threatened and I had to have a personal escort. I knew things like this were bound to happen eventually but it still caught me off guard. I realize I need to aware of my surroundings but in a way I have almost become desensitizing to the threat. I know that sounds horrible but after yesterday the light that I thought surrounded me, protected me, shielded me, died down.

I am alive.........

Wow it really has been a while since I posted! I've been reading all of my regulars but I haven't had any inspiration or anything terribly exciting to say. Work is busy as usual and I've been doing loads and loads of paperwork. It seems like every time I turn around the cases are getting worse and worse.
My health is the same as it has been for the last two months. It seems like everytime I think things are getting better and I finally start feeling "normal" again I start to get sick again. I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow and maybe just maybe I'll get lucky and I'll get an answer. More than likely the answer will be "we have to run more tests come back in a month." One of these days they'll figure out what is really wrong with me more than likely it will be when they do my autopsy.
We went out drinking on Saturday and it was a shit show. I thought I didn't think I had a lot to drink but apparently I did because after I got in the car to go home (not driving) I don't remember too much of anything after that. We went out with some of my old friends from high school. It's wired how you can not talk to a group a people for years and then pick right back up like you never lost all that time.

Putting a Message on Your Bumper

I hate when people put stupid bumper stickers on their car. I'll admit when I got my first car it had a ton of bumper stickers on my car. I was 16 it was a mistake and I admit it. I hate when I see the bumper stickers that say: MARRIAGE = then has a man and a women figure! I want to pull up next to them and say congratulations on being a fuckin' fuck but I don't. I hate religion on bumpers Jesus fish, Catholics rock, Jesus loves you and do I, blah blah blah. It's crazy that these bumper stickers go hand and hand you know I hate gays but love Jesus. When I drive behind these people I think about crashing into the back of their car and yelling Jesus didn't love you enough to stop you from getting hit now did he?

On the other hand I stayed home from work today because once again my uterus has decided that we aren't friends again this month. I just want to be healthy for once is that too much to ask?

Long Distance Friends

So for the longest time I thought myspace was the worst idea ever invented. I mean what does this guy Tom get out of creating the website besides being "friends" with everyone who joins. Myspace gives you the ability to search for people in various ways. When I'm bored I search myspace for people I know to see if they actually have a site. Well I was searching myspace the other day and I came across an old friend of mine who moved away suddenly when I was in 8th grade. I ended up emailing her and she emailed me back and we've been talking. This experience has made me realize that myspace may not be so bad but it's still used for a lot of bad things.
Work has been fine the usually bs. My health is still the same and I will be going to the doctor on 9/11. Not the best day to be sick but hopefully things will turn out in my favor. Maybe just this once I'll be normal. I'd even taken semi normal at this point.